Layoff update -- mental shifts

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Something interesting happened this weekend. 

With only two work days left before my job is eliminated, I expected to be going into this week panicked, worried, and freaking out. 

Instead, something else entirely happened.

First, I started to feel calm -- calmer than I've felt in a very long time. 

Second, I started to feel excited and curious about the possibilities of hours not spent at a job working for someone else. 

I've spent the last two months growing increasingly anxious and depressed about my layoff, to a degree that I started to see a new therapist and have considered trying an antidepressant.

Through working with my therapist and facing the elimination of my job, I've been considering what I really want out of life. Am I just pursuing certain paths because I feel like I should or because I think it's expected? 

I am still looking for a new job and have had several promising interviews, but this mental shift and the possibilities raised by not having a regular job are intriguing.

Stay tuned...

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